So i'm just going to level this out in my mind for a minute.
I don't think anyone knows what's happening with me atm. I don't really myself. But here are the basics.

-I'm failing at school, but not just because i'm a lazy tard, because of all the shit that's happening at home that no one really knows about.

- My mum kicked me out. Although she claims i chose to leave.

- I'm staying with my dad but it's just confusing me. He's all nice and understanding when he's sober. But the thing is whenever he comes in from the pub (which is like 4 times a week) he just goes crazy. I honestly can't take it anymore. Tonight he smacked me, like not proper hard but he's NEVER done that before. And the other day he threw a massive bottle of coins at me. Its getting to the point where i'm actually scared of him, that's not right.

- My mum is being all cryptic and being like 'it's complicated' about whether or not i can come home. If she doesn't want me there i wish she'd just say. But i haven't told her anything about my dad.

- I'm seriously tempted to drop out of school, get a job and move into my own place.

- My friendships are suffering because im not talking about it, at least i think thats the problem, it might just be me. I dont really know.

Fuck. What do i do now?