I have had one of the best days ever :) Sunshine really helps this. But actually its deeper than that, i had a good nights sleep despite drunken escapades last night, which doesnt happen very often. Then i had a really nice afternoon with alex with no fighting for once. Whoo! Though his friend fell over and burnt his hand on the BBQ cos he is an idiot, which cut my evening short :/ I dont even care that much though cos now i have lots of time tonight to do other fun things.

I think i like simple days the best. Ones where nothing dramatic at all happens, its just happiness the whole time.

I LOVE YOU

When being drunkards last night, laura and i thought it was very weird that we've all, especially myself, started saying 'love you' lots to eachother at random intervals where it isnt really necessary. She told me to write a post about it so i am.

It's weird.

Send Me Back, I'll Share The Trap You Have Me In.

So looks like im becoming a fan of these early morning posts :)
I'm quite lonesome. I was quite looking forward to having the house to myself for a whole week, but i think i forget that i dont actually like being alone. At all. Maybe that's why i cant sleep this time, i dont know. But it isnt nice not having anyone about, thats the conclusion im coming to.
Though doing your own food shopping is a fun experience :) First time only i imagine.

I just did a weird taking pictures of the sun rising thing. But then, i suppose i did say i had to be more creative. I bet my neighbours are pissed off though cos it was like half 4 in the morning and i was outside in the garden singing laura marling and taking pictures, but nevermind.
So i think i'd describe my current mood as pensive :/ But actually i just google defined it and it said 'brooding or seriously thoughtful', so maybe its not quite as heavy as that.


Anyhoo, i found this illustrator called caitlin shearer and i think she's a bit awesome, don't know if you guys will agree with me...

Its entirely possible that it's just me being weird :)

And go listen to Sheets by Damien Jurado

My life, my lover, my lady is the sea-eeeeeeee

I wrote a list a while back of 50 songs that 'changed my life' and i think i'm gonna edit it then post it. Because to me obviously, its a bit awesome. I doubt you peoples will agree with me, but everyone has different ones i guess :) And i think it kind of sums me up. So yeah, here goes, in no particular order....

1. Brandy (cover) - The Red Hot Chili Peppers
2. This Picture - Placebo
3. Set Phasers to Stun - Taking Back Sunday
4. Granite - Pendulum
5. Teeth the size of piano keys - Chiodos
6. Theyre NOT horses, theyre unicorns - Bayside
7. Where Have you Been?- Manchester Orchestra
8. Living la vida loca - Ricky Martin LOL
9. Zombie - The Cranberries
10. The Call - Regina Spektor
11. Charmer - Kings of Leon
12. The Bad Touch - Bloodhound gang
13. Mirrors - Envy on The Coast
14. Daughter of the sun - Matthew Santos
15. Jasey Rae - All Time Low
16. This City Is Contagious - The Cab
17. The Deaf Girls Song - Cloud Cult
18. Business Time - Flight of the conchords (although sugar lumps has to come close to overtaking :))
19. Calm a llama down - The mighty boosh
20. Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
21. Suggestion - Fugazi
22. Set Free - Katie Gray
23. Knocked Up - Kings of Leon
24. Roulette Dares (This is the Haunt) - The Mars Volta
25. Dead End - Master Shortie
26. Luv Addict - Family Force 5
27. Monster - Meg and Dia
28. Hell to Sell - The Audition
29. Am i Ever Gonna Find Out - Lifehouse
30. Colly Strings - Manchester Orchestra
31. I Was a Cage - Right Away, Great Captain!
32. Feeling Good - Muse
33. Three Wishes - The Pierces
34. Creator - Santogold
35. Who Am I - Will Young (and i'm not sorry :))
36. I didnt say i was powerful, I said i was a wizard - Chiodos
37. Courtship Dating - Crystal Castles
38. UFO - Sneaky Sound System
39. Floods - Fightstar
40. Gnomzxx - I Haunt Wizards
41. Natural Woman - Aretha Franklin
42. Starstrukk - 3OH!3
43. The Rat - Dead Confederate
44. Prescilla - Bat For Lashes
45. Blankets - Devil and The Lion
46. Saturday Night - Bon Jovi :/
47. Yellow - Cold Play
48. Megan (smoking popes cover) - Bayside
49. I wanna Dance With Somebody - Whitney Houston (winner (y))
50. Breaking the Habit - Linkin Park

My blog, i shall post what i please :) Sorry for boring you by being centimental.

room aspirations

I Lied i would also REALLY love my room to look like one of these, that would make me happy.....

And me, I ran, I couldn't even look at him, For fear I'd have to say goodbye

My dads going on holiday next week :) Yay!
This means that i get a house to myself for a whoooole week (Girls gathering round mine i feel?) and a not quite so shitty computer for all my interweb related needs.
The only things i need to be happy now is moneys because i just opened my purse and i literally have £1.71p to my name. Not to mention just becoming £1595 in debt to my father for the india payment he just paid.
Also to be more creative. Cos at the minute im a bit of a failure and its boring.
Oh, and sleep.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. Iz gon fail physics nod.

It is currently 05:43 in the morning and i have not slept.
At all.
As i suspected i wouldn't.
I did use this usual sleeping time for good revision business. However, it just made me realise how little i know and that there is no way i'll be improving on that D. But nevermind.
I am hoping to avoid sleeping in my exam, again, by drinking muchos coffee although im not sure it will work.
I just realised i've done about 4 hours of revision and i have 6 hours of exams today.
That can't be good.
However, after today i have 10 days off exams :) which is a bit lovely. So i'll cling to that fact when i close the exam knowing i only definitely got 2 marks (y) winner.
Sorry :/ I'm in that weird sleepy-hyper mood
wish me luck :) i'll neeeeeeed it.

Now for the proper today post :)

Today I am an exceedingly happy child considering the ridiculous amount of physics revision i have to do tomorrow. This is due to 4 main things :)

• In theory, i may never have to do another geography exam ever again ever =D


• Ella being a very awesome summer music supplier and giving me all the summery things listed on HER latest post whoot.


• Me finding my own awesome summer music which is a bit freaking incredible :)


• Ella and I returning to our normal late night rambley selves after a slight blockage of the ramble flow.

(Thanks to some random guy called allan in Oaklands blog that i found) Go listen to the following musics:

• Brilliant Red Lights - Declaration of Purpose


• Margot and the nuclear so and so's - children's crusade on acid


• Pretty much anything by Tera Melos (its instrumental but quite awesome and LOUD)

LAMPS!

I thought these pictures are pretty much the most awesome thing ive seen in freaking ages....

So, when me and alex fought the other day, it was because i found out he was supposed to be taking some girl to prom. And i reacted really horribly and actually he did nothing wrong at all.
But in my defense, I really hate this girl, and he knows it. I dont really know what to do now though because he's mad at me for over reacting, which i completely understand and he isn't even going to prom anymore cos he couldnt get a ticket. So i have no idea how to make it right again because its not like i can say, 'okay go then, don't worry about me', because he cant go. It makes me feel horrible.

Is it weird that i feel jealous when he already chose me? I just hate the fact that i feel like someone he sneaks off to go and see. Argh.

Me and my brother hiking, me and my brother might find a turtle. Just have some fun.

I'm a very happy child. I was in a really bad mood earlier cos i had a massive argument with alex and everything was just a bit shit. But NOW i'm happy cos i'm going to see manchester orchestra again!!! YAY!!! But they best be better than last time or i'll be disappointed. Again.

Also, i had my first exam on thursday and it didnt go as awfully as i thought it would. So thats really good. I do however have 8 still to go, and i do have to do my citizenship exams . Which means i have 5 hours 45 minutes of exams in one day which is disgusting.

I love that new noisettes song you gave me laura so thanks :) But i cant get it out of my head.

Throw your judgements across the breeze, watch them float off and never be saved.

It's all grey outside :( which makes me very sad. so this somes up my current mood in many ways.

More than just the weather too. I wish it was summer two years ago when i had nothing to worry about at all. But at the same time that doesn't really work i guess, cos i want to still have you guys to spend it with. Just some simplicity would be nice.

Things i want most right now:

• Sunnnnn, and a fully even sun tan :)


• To not have to go back to school when exams are finished


• To be in India enjoying it, rather than worrying about it.


• A cheese and ham panini like i had at starbucks yesterday


• To wish Laura a happy birthday!! =D


• These shoes...

I wrote a poem :) Its really quite terrible, but i had an urge, so....

Some things have to go unsaid

To keep things sane

To Keep ME sane

But lines drawn, shouldn't be crossed, right?

People get too comfortable

Forget lines existed

When words said corrupt what you knew as truth

How do you get back to naivety

To a place where you trust the words of others

Love those who want your love

Because of the

Entirety

Of your trust

But Instead

You feel youself slipping

Back to that pathetic place inside youself

That holds your love back

For the select few

No newcomers allowed.

You sit back. covered up those sound that don't come from my lips

I'm in the weirdest mood ever.

I keep getting all randomly teary, which usually means somethings wrong

but i don't know what it is yet :/

Might be something to do with my mother telling me if i miss anymore school she's not gonna pay for any of it anymore. My travel, books etc.

Which tbh is perfectly fair cos im being a lazy fuck, however, its hard to stop once you get into the habit of not caring .

The last bit is what makes me doubt its this and that makes me feel bad.

But yeah, i watched a very good film yesterday, which ella has been telling me to watch for ages called : Lars and the real girl with Ryan Gosling (yum, though not so much in this) and it made me cry which imo is a good thing. But yeah if anyone other than the 3 people i know will read this, reads this, watch it cos it was amazing :)

Songs that don't help the teary mood but i still love atm :

La-di-da - Manchester Orchestra

Anyday - Ani DiFranco

Like Lions Do - Right Away! Great Captain

No Need to Argue - The Cranberries

Start with the things that define you.

My name is charlotte. This is my first ever blog so be patient.
There are a few main things you should know:

• I don't generally talk about myself, even to the people i would hope talk to me about themselves.
• I love the stories people tell through music, movies and books. More than the ones i make with my own life a lot of the time.
• I will try to always be very honest on this blog, though i will find that hard.

In all honesty, i don't know what kind of detail to go into or anything.

So for now, i'll just say, i like life just now. I love the friends i have and that i don't mind losing the ones im growing apart from. I like the fact i can talk to my sisters. I love the fact that i know my own mind and that few other people do. I do NOT like exams, but they will be out of the way soon. I love the fact that i'm finally looking forward to going to India. But mostly i love that i'm finally talking about myself (if a little confusingly, sorry :/)

But yeah, those are my current thoughts :)